My Jannah is no more…

We are hiding in a school building… I am alone here… Alone, yet not truly alone, as unfamiliar faces surround me… I am standing in Class 7th… It was my classroom of grade 7.. I remember where I used to sit when I was 12, and that window from where me and my friends used to exchange chips and wafers. But now, that same window fills me with dread; moments ago, I witnessed a horrifying explosion, and a child’s body, clad in a grey sweater, has landed there. His eyes are shut, a faint smile gracing his lips, marred by splatters of blood. Gunfire erupts nearby, the sound of boots pounding the floor grows louder.I hide myself behind the door of my seventh grade classroom. Within a second, the door knob is being opened.

A soldier in uniform strides in, and in that fleeting moment, I catch a glimpse of him before I shut my eyes tight. He opens fire, bullets erupting from his weapon; one, two, three, and countless more. My mind momentarily freezes, but a force jolts me back, and these words were on my lips

I was repeating it fervently. Though bullets were out of the barrel, but instead of pain, I felt only a cool breeze. My senses sharpen; I hear the gunfire and feel the wind, yet I keep my eyes closed, raising my finger in a gesture of testimony, claiming

For the first time, I sensed the shooter’s breath close to my ear, as if he’s taunting me, asking, ‘What did you say?’ I respond again, adding to my declaration with

Once again, I felt the chill of the breeze against my face. I am grateful, Alhumdulilah, for the happiness that has finally come to me. I’m on my way to Jannah… لبيك اللهم لبيك. At last, I have got my ticket to Jannah… I’m truly going to Jannah… All my struggles, depression, and worries are behind me. Wallahi, I’m heading to the place I’ve always dreamed of, where I can be on swing, play badminton, ride cycle and horses freely in my own Jannah alongside my beloved ones (May Allah grant them Jannah too… Amen ya Rabb). My trials are over… that is all? Was I only able to endure this much suffering in my life? Indeed, … that is my conviction, and it is the belief of every Muslim!